Merging Souls Emerging

Merging Souls Emerging

In Memory of YOu

For You

Because of You....

I used to believe in Love

I used to believe in a God made in the minds of the Men in Suits

I used to believe it was wrong to love you, to want you, to need you

I used to believe you would leave but you never did

It was always me doing the leaving

I always had my Reasons

I'm so stubborn

And I have to wonder why you ever really loved me at all

Perhaps our love was hidden somewhere, somehow,

in the shadows where the light meets the dark

And I could never really find my way all the way to the other side of the wonder,

of the extreme of you, the depths, yes, maybe...

But your mind was bent just enough in that angle that refracts the

bright light blinding me to the brilliance of the radiance of Different.

Yet from my soul, in recognition of your soul...I know who you are

as you know who I am....Like you kept a piece of me tucked away,

safe, no matter what....

like that's what we had agreed to do

before we came through this time....

And it was a piece,

 like a code word,

 so we would recognize one another in an instant.

You didn't expect the Suit I had put on would be quite this complicated

 and I didn't recognize you...not at first.

 I didn't know.

I was so afraid

 and I had been trying to escape back into the

Arms of The Love from The Other Side....

Have I gone Mad?

Perhaps...

But...I've always been Mad where you're concerned.

I've never been reasonable or practicle.

I sit here and I know how successful I have been in burning the bridges between us.

Systematically we aborted our love.

Do we get another chance?

I can't see it....

Yet....

Why do I dream of you as mine, as us, as we...

 as together entwined from the inside out?

And you know how faulty and full of holes I am.

You are my book...the one that I tuck here beneath my soul....

 until the next time, another life... whenever that will be...

I believe,

 I believe in the love of life and the power of tender reflection.

I believe in the love that resonates from Heart to Heart,

from Soul to Soul,

 from me to you.

I believe in you.

I believe in me.

I believe in everything happens for a reason.

You taught me that.

I'm not done learning from loving you.

And now?

 I believe in a Mother God who has the power to fix anything.

Who believes in the Power of Love come to Completion...

if we're Brave Enough to ask Her.

If we're Brave Enough to take the Risk....

I wouldn't Change a Thing...

Not One Fight

Not One Tear

I wouldn't change our first kiss or our last kiss

Look where it has brought me

And We knew it was going to be this hard...

We knew it before we agreed to do it...

We knew how badly we would get knocked about

We knew that our Hearts would be RENT apart and that we

would Bleed to near death ALL  for  LOVE

All for the Belief that LOVE IS EVERYTHING.

I have to trust my Love and let it go freely....

Let it flow unencumbered...

Let it flow directly, powerfully to You...

Now and Then...

Now and then it will wash over you in warmth,

perfect for Awakening...

A Perfect Fulfillment of the Contracted Cocoon of Time and

Pain Altered by Separation and Rejection and Experience...

Perfect Contrast...

It's The MUSE....

I LOVE YOU....

Not like they told you love would be...easy

I LOVE YOU all the more for HOW HARD,

HOW FUCKING HARD it is

I LOVE YOU in the Anger you hold against your heart as a shield

to protect it while its bleeding, bruised and sore....

I don't expect you to forgive me....ever

Why would you?

She said that she should have trusted him...

And it was then that I knew that I should have trusted you....

Therein lies our dichotomy....